Brand New // Sic Transit Gloria
That brilliant moment when you realize you’re probably the single most shittiest person you know, and you hate yourself for even existing….
had the weirdest couple of days; this one didn’t go too well. been exhausted all day, had a panic attack as soon as i woke up, just felt pretty inadequate and blah all day. i couldn’t sleep so i decided to cut, then get high, then take an oxy… what the fuck is wrong with me lol.
I feel very inadequate and pointless tonight. I don’t matter, and it’s just so apparent that everyone in my life is replacing me. I can’t even blame them: who would want to be around me? I don’t even want to be around me; I fucking hate myself.
Oh man, oh geeze, nothing like getting kinda depressed in a group of your friends and feeling like they don’t belong because they’re way cooler than you. Fuck.